This past week has been a logistic nightmare and frankly it’s hard to think of a time when I have been more stressed over the business side of art.  I have been running around like a madwoman trying to get a high resolution scan of a painting that has been licensed to a big client at a huge size, 10x12ft. The reason this has been so stressful is because it has been difficult to find someone who can deliver this size scan. Adding to this stress, the client who purchased the original painting needs it by next week and I have to ship across the country this week.

I hate this feeling. The pit in my stomach of potentially disappointing clients that I highly value. I like to joke that there are no “art emergencies” because usually buying art is a slow process and no one needs a painting immediately. This is not the case in this one circumstance. This is a quickly swirling vortex of buyers, third parties, and me in the middle waiting for and relying on others to get back to me and deliver on promises they made me too.

I don’t know what is going to happen yet. But I’m doing the best I can to get everyone what they were promised. By the end of the week I’m hoping to have a high enough resolution file for my licensee client. Whether or not I have the high resolution file or not I will definitely have shipped the original across the country. Only time will tell if all the logistics will fall into place.

But here is what I know; I’m doing the best I can with the time constraints, the third parties involved, and the factors outside of my control. I know the world will keep spinning and I know I’m way off course of why I do this.

I’m not here, doing this thing I love to cause stress in my life or others. In fact, the opposite is true, my goal with all of my works is to bring peace, beauty and light, in all interactions, and I will strive to do that in all interactions and as far as I am in control of circumstances.

I have faith that God will work all the spinning wheels and parts out for the best and in a way that will bless others and I hope that blesses and brings me peace too. But for now, I am opening my hand and letting go of what I can’t control.